I’ve just put a ton of pressure on myself. I’ve a painting in my head. Not random squiggles. Not a cartoon’y girl or bot or an attempt to draw something or an experiment in what I consider “cheating” using photos to create art. No, a painting, from my brain… Inspired by something with so much meaning to me. The pressure I am about to put on myself, knowing I’m not really an artist… Oh my. But here I go. It’s a lovely beautiful thoughtful ugh I have no words… It’s an idea I must try. Even if perfection were to exist, and I somehow knew how to create it, I’d still find ways to claim I hadn’t. So, trying to get this idea onto the computer screen and be happy with it, is going to be tough. But I must try. And I must try to find the way to make it so that I kind of semi sort of like it. I like the concept. That’s a start. I came up up with the idea for a painting — digital painting — with inspiration borrowed from somewhere else, and am HAPPY with that… wow, I must be broken, am not beating myself totally up… yet. Ready… set…. here I go… Time to start.
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